Hearts a Mess- T Shirt + Singlet [50% to Lifeline Aotearoa]
When I am in love, my hearts a mess. When I am heartbroken, my hearts a mess. When I am neither. . . my heart is just fine.
This shirt has a story behind it. It may be long, just bear with me it’s worth it.
In 2011 I caught a bus to Auckland every day for work. I used to write random things in the condensation on the bus stop windows, because. . . I guess I am just that kind of girl. Off the top of my head I only recall “THIS IS YOUR HOME NOW” and “YOU DIDN’T NEED IT ANYWAY” . . . things like that.
Most mornings a boy wandered up to the bus stop after I got there, I never noticed him noticing my words, although he had eyes so I guess he did. We never spoke, I think he was pretty much there not too long before bus came so we didn’t get a chance to really say anything. We always smiled at each other.
After a few weeks I turned up one morning and across the back of the bus stop was written “HEARTS A MESS”. I am only assuming he wrote it, through the process of logical thinking. There were still wet drip lines running from the words so I could tell it was fresh.
I didn’t comment, probably smiled my usual morning smile at him, got on the bus and went to work.
Over the next year or so it stuck with me, I have never told anyone about it until now. It became a standard phrase I used in my head and a nice story for me to remember. I liked it. I did look it up at one point and I think it is the title of a song, which I never listened to.
About a year later my heart became a proper mess and I fell in love with someone. The bus stop boy was this someones friend so I got to know him a tiny bit and discovered he was pretty dam cool. I never asked him about the bus stop. I wish I did. Unfortunately a year after I properly met him, this sweet, caring, joker of a messed up kid took his own life at the age of 21 years 3 months 5 days. He has left a massive hole in the heart of many, and will be missed more than any words written anywhere could ever express.
$20 (50%) from the sale of any of these shirts will be donated to http://www.lifeline.org.nz.
Please, if anything major is bugging you or you are feeling in a not so great place and you think you might want to talk to someone about it. Give Lifeline a call.
Lifeline Aotearoa has 3 branches around the country, including a Support Office based in Auckland.
Below are the contact details for each branch. If you would like to speak with a Lifeline Counsellor, please ring 0800 543 354.
|Auckland||(09) 909 firstname.lastname@example.org|
|Christchurch||(03) 366 email@example.com|